Are you called to read the writings of spiritual teachers? Do you find yourself eagerly pouncing on their newest offerings, hungry for the words that will take you further on your spiritual quest? Do you note the people whom these teachers quote as further sources for your search? These questions capture my quest over a period of many years. I kept searching and searching, moving from one spiritual teacher to another, digging deeper and developing my understanding of their teachings, but always deferring to these teachers to tell me about God and to inform me about the Divine.
After years of trying to satisfy an unquenchable hunger to know God, I realized that all of the writings by spiritual teachers could only serve as signposts for what I am called to know and experience for myself. I realized that knowing about God in my mind based on what others told me was not truly knowing the Divine. I stopped my incessant searching for others to tell me what I needed to know for ME, and I began to trust in my own explorations, experiences, and knowing.
I began to trust in the unconditional love and quiet inner peace that I open into when I quiet my mind and go within to my soul. The love that envelopes me is always there, as is the exquisite knowing that all is well and that I can rest and feel at ease in that loving embrace, knowing that I am never alone and that I am always fully supported and guided. The wisdom that I have gained through writing and prayer while in this inner state is profound and not the product of my mind. It has given me clarity as I asked for understanding and guidance when I could not find my way. It has opened the way for forgiveness and unconditional love when I could not make that happen on my own.
I began to trust in giving everything to Holy Spirit, God’s Teacher Who is here for all of us. I experienced the easy flow and unfolding of situations in which I had set myself up to feel anxious and judged. I experienced an open heart and forgiveness in situations in which I had set myself up to experience attack and hurt. I began to see that when I tried to figure things out on my own from my ego-mind, I made life hard for myself. When I ask Holy Spirit for guidance and help, I release my egoic need to control and judge and, instead, experience the peace of allowing life to unfold. I become the observer of the flow of life, and it stops being hard or stressful as I get out of my own way.
Another way that I love to experience God is getting outside and finding quiet places to be in nature. When I get quiet and close to Mother Earth, I am filled with peace and a sense of connection to all that is. As I settle into the vibrant energy of which I am a part, I am nurtured and strengthened from within. In those moments, I know that I am experiencing the Divine, the presence of God in all of creation.
I am learning to trust in my own knowing of God, and as I do, my spiritual reading affirms my experience. Instead of looking to others to tell me what I yearn to know about God, I trust in my ever-deepening knowing of the Divine. I look back and witness the process that has unfolded in my life as I developed an appetite to learn about God and then opened myself to true experience and knowing.
Dear spiritual sisters and brothers, how do you experience God? How do you connect with the Divine and know your true essence? I invite you to share with the hope and prayer that your experience will touch others to be able to find and truly know God, to experience their spiritual identity and the ever-present guidance and love that is here for us all. As we share, we will learn and grow together, and that will strengthen our experience as a spiritual family. I look forward to connecting and growing with you. Namaste, my dears :))