Another Lesson Presents Itself in My Life
In spite of the spiritual growth and deepening awareness I share with you week after week, it was interesting to observe how quickly I fell into the clutches of fear when I received unexpected news last night. In previous posts, I have shared with you my experiences with swollen joints and the message to forgive and release past emotional pain that I believed my body was telling me. Swollen, painful joints have continued to challenge me, and I have kept working on forgiveness, innately knowing that suppressed pain and anger were causing the inflammation in my joints. Yesterday, I received a call from my doctor to see her after school regarding test results. Within the space of four words, my day turned upside-down, and the light-hearted, open me began to constrict and tighten inside. “You had rheumatoid arthritis.” The laughter and easy conversation stopped, as images of worst-case scenarios flooded my […]
Releasing Self-Created Stories
It seems that this holiday season is ripe with realizations for me, and it is my prayer that in sharing what I am learning that you will find some clarity and healing too. As the time approaches for celebrating Christmas with family and loved ones, instead of brimming over with anticipation, different emotions seem to be rising within me. Tears flowed again and again as I decorated the tree and as I prepared homemade favourites for my children. Feelings of loneliness and isolation rose within me as I began my two-week break from teaching. Dread and resistance rise within me as I think of time with my parents and siblings. What is there for me to realize and learn from these emotions?
Always Choose Love
In the face of hatred and violence, our egos scream for retribution. Our egos would have us believe that we are all separate individuals and that we have to protect what is ours, whether that be our loved ones, our property, or our safety. When we listen to our egos, we lash out at others because we are afraid. All acts of revenge begin as fear.
Depression or Suppressed Emotional Pain?
Have you been diagnosed with depression like I was? Were you prescribed anti-depressants as the “fix”? Like me, have you struggled with trying to get off these toxic, dependency-causing drugs? If so, we need to talk… right here… right now. As I am coming out the other side of the final withdrawal and detoxing, I have had some pretty profound realizations that I want to share with you…. no… need to share with you.
Self-Creating Emotional Pain
Have you experienced feelings of emotional pain because of what you perceived in someone’s reaction to you? Has this hurt surfaced again and again to monopolize your thoughts and clutch your heart in its tight grip? At a later point, have you realized that you created your own pain and that there was no intention of hurt by that person?
The Peace Test
How can you be sure that you are going the right way in life? None of wants to commit to a path and then discover that we made the wrong decision. We all want to feel certain about the steps we decide to take or the way in which we are going. There is one sure way that we can know for sure. It is the peace test, and it comes from Chapter 14, XI, 5:2 in A Course in Miracles: “If you are wholly free of fear of any kind, and if all those who meet or even think of you share in your perfect peace, then you can be sure that you have learned God’s lesson, and not your own.”
Learning to Honour the Process of Healing
When old pain surfaces and its raw ache tears at your heart as if you were immersed in it all over again, do you wonder if you will ever be free of it? Do you question whether you will ever be completely healed? Do you struggle with forgiving those who caused this pain? Do you judge yourself for not being able to release these grievances to the past where they belong?
The Freedom of Releasing Control and Learning to Allow
I have made a pact with myself, a pact that is bringing such peace and freedom into my life, that I wonder why it took me so long to accept its importance. My pact is very simple; I release my need to control life and allow life to flow. I have been a “control freak” perfectionist most of my life. Everything had to be done according to my notions of “perfect,” and the one that I was hardest on in this elusive quest for perfection was me. I felt that I needed to take care of every detail so that things were done “right.” That pursuit had a high cost because I demanded 110% of myself for every single thing that I did. I wasn’t content with 90% or even 100%. I had to push myself to give more than was possible or expected so that I could live up […]
Creating Spiritual Family With You
It has been my hope and prayer since I began this blog that, together, we can create a community in which we all feel recognized, supported, and loved unconditionally, and in which we can open ourselves up to share our light, our healing, and our spiritual openings. My dream is to create a very real experience of the spiritual family of which we are all a part, whether we recognize it or not. I would like to share a message I received from my dear spiritual Brother, Hart, and which he has given me permission to share with you. I have read your last few posts with alacrity and have felt most moved and inspired. As you express your ideas, you see, you are giving me voice and opening that space inside me that is in silence, yet responds so deeply to the ideas and metaphors and descriptions you provide me ( and […]
To All Women and Children
This post is dedicated to Latasha, Landen, Jenika, and Janayah Gosling, and to all women and children who need support, safety, and healing. The news of a murder-suicide in my small community of Tisdale, Saskatchewan, sent shock waves through us all. The incomprehensible had happened in our peaceful, little community. A young mother and her three beautiful, innocent children had been murdered by the man with whom she had been in a relationship. Then he had travelled to Prince Albert, a small city about 130 kilometres from Tisdale, with the six-month-old baby that he and the mother had shared, where he took his own life. The baby was found alive beside his body. How could this have happened? I think back to the morning that I learned what had happened. It had seemed like any other morning. The sun was shining brightly, just as it had every morning for the […]