Deflecting Our Truth
How often do we ignore our inner guidance because we believe that we know better? When do we create chaos in our lives to avoid what we intuitively know that we are being guided to do? How often do we deflect what we know to be truth that is guiding us from within and waiting for us to listen? Why can’t we trust that our inner guidance is for our highest good?
Profound Inner Guidance
New responsibilities in my position at work are challenging my fears and insecurities and bringing me face-to-face with more inner work that I need to do. You see, the classroom is my comfort zone, and it is there with my students that I feel secure in the community that we create together and confident in the learning opportunities that I create and present for them. My new responsibilities take me beyond the classroom and involve planning and presenting professional development for my colleagues. Suddenly, the confident, competent teacher falls prey to anxiety that confronts her at every turn — anxiety that plays constant messages of self-doubt and perceived judgment. My old nemesis is back — fear of knowing and embracing my own worth. What learning is there in this for me? As my mind filled with anxious rehashing of what had happened prior to and during my first presentation to staff, I received a clear, direct soul message that told me exactly what I need to do.
What You Seek Is Reflected Back to You
It is easy to think of this as a fearful world. All we have to do is watch the news at any hour on any day to see one crime, wrongdoing, or violent act after another. It is easy to fall prey to the seductive beckoning and propagation of fear. It is easy to fall into the belief that we need to protect ourselves and all that is ours against inevitable attack. It is what we are fed, hour after hour, day after day — a steady diet of fear, attack, and retribution.
We Can Choose to Feel Lonely, But We Are Never Alone
Perhaps you think I am playing with words or trying to be clever. I can assure you that I am not. I know what it is to feel lonely. I know how easy it is to believe that I am alone and that no one cares — that it is just me against the world. I know how quickly I can allow myself to have a full-out pity party of one. All this can happen in the blink of an eye when I buy into the story that my ego wants me to believe — that I am separate from everyone else and that I am on my own in this world.
Prayer of Thanksgiving
Thank you for loving me through it all —
through all the times I thought I could do things my own way;
through all the wrong turns and stubborn choices that I made in spite of my inner guidance;
through my misguided determination to figure things out for myself.
What Are We Teaching?
We are all teachers. We teach in every moment that we share with another. We teach with every word we say and with every action we take. We teach with every facial expression, gesture, and bodily reaction. We teach with and without words. The question is — what are we teaching?
My Belief That I Am Special
As I have studied A Course in Miracles, I have questioned why I would want to separate from God in the first place. Why would I want to go my own way when my journey has become one of returning home to God?
Depression or Suppressed Emotional Pain?
Have you been diagnosed with depression like I was? Were you prescribed anti-depressants as the “fix”? Like me, have you struggled with trying to get off these toxic, dependency-causing drugs? If so, we need to talk… right here… right now. As I am coming out the other side of the final withdrawal and detoxing, I have had some pretty profound realizations that I want to share with you…. no… need to share with you.
The Peace Test
How can you be sure that you are going the right way in life? None of wants to commit to a path and then discover that we made the wrong decision. We all want to feel certain about the steps we decide to take or the way in which we are going. There is one sure way that we can know for sure. It is the peace test, and it comes from Chapter 14, XI, 5:2 in A Course in Miracles: “If you are wholly free of fear of any kind, and if all those who meet or even think of you share in your perfect peace, then you can be sure that you have learned God’s lesson, and not your own.”
Learning to Honour the Process of Healing
When old pain surfaces and its raw ache tears at your heart as if you were immersed in it all over again, do you wonder if you will ever be free of it? Do you question whether you will ever be completely healed? Do you struggle with forgiving those who caused this pain? Do you judge yourself for not being able to release these grievances to the past where they belong?