What Is That Inner Yearning for More?
Do you sometimes struggle with being in the world? Do you feel like you’re not of this world, that it seems to confront you at every turn, and yet you have to find a way to exist in it? Do you yearn for more, but you can’t seem to find what you seek in the world? I often feel like I’m a stranger here — that I don’t belong — and yet, I’m here. I have to find a way to be in this world, this world that feels too harsh, that often grates against the me that feels so sensitive, so tender, so not of this world.
Grounded in Uncertainty
There is no doubt that we are living in times of great upheaval and uncertainty. For so many of us, it seems that there is less and less to hold onto and to count on in our lives and in the world around us. Waves of change, unexpected losses, and seemingly insurmountable obstacles shadow the lives of so many. As turbulence weaves through the fabric of our lives, we experience fear and anxiety. Where do we turn for the support and security that we can’t seem to find in our outer worlds? How can we stand strong and grounded within the uncertainty that shadows our lives?
How Does True Forgiveness Feel?
Those of you who have followed my blog for a while know that I have struggled to practise forgiveness in my life. At first, it was a way for me to release emotional baggage that was weighing me down and keeping me stuck in negativity and blame. Then, as I opened into awareness of my spiritual identity, it became vitally important to me to truly forgive those whom I believed had hurt me and to be able to love them unconditionally. I wanted to be able to think of them and feel only love – no blame, no judgment, no hurt – only love. Each time, I thought that I had forgiven, events occurred to show me that even though my intent was to forgive, I hadn’t reached a state of true forgiveness.
Another Lesson Presents Itself in My Life
In spite of the spiritual growth and deepening awareness I share with you week after week, it was interesting to observe how quickly I fell into the clutches of fear when I received unexpected news last night. In previous posts, I have shared with you my experiences with swollen joints and the message to forgive and release past emotional pain that I believed my body was telling me. Swollen, painful joints have continued to challenge me, and I have kept working on forgiveness, innately knowing that suppressed pain and anger were causing the inflammation in my joints. Yesterday, I received a call from my doctor to see her after school regarding test results. Within the space of four words, my day turned upside-down, and the light-hearted, open me began to constrict and tighten inside. “You had rheumatoid arthritis.” The laughter and easy conversation stopped, as images of worst-case scenarios flooded my […]
Unconditional Love and Forgiveness
I often use stream-of-consciousness writing to find illumination when I am experiencing internal struggle. I want to share the wisdom that came through in my writing today.
Dear Beloved, talk to me about unconditional love and forgiveness.
A Message of Love to You
Do not measure yourself against the illusions of love propagated by consumerism and marketing campaigns. Most of all, do not view yourself as “less than” those who receive grand gestures and proclamations of special love on this day that marketers use as yet another opportunity to make money in the guise of celebrating love. Rather, see what is truth beyond the glittery trappings and guilt-inducing advertisements of what has become a commercial holiday. You are Love. Period. You are God’s Child, created in Love and as Love. Your worth is not measured in the professions of love by another. Your worth is measured in the truth of your creation and being.
The Lenses We Choose Create Our Experience
Do you realize the power you have to create your experiences? It all comes down to the lenses that you choose to wear, and the lenses that you choose reflect what you believe. But wait? Doesn’t life happen to us? Don’t we just do our best to adapt to what transpires in our lives? This common belief assumes that we are victims of our circumstances. Rather, we are powerful creators, and we experience exactly what we expect to experience in any given situation.
Maintaining the Energy of Love
How do you maintain the positive energy that feels so effortless when you are centred within the love that you are? How do you keep your heartfelt intention to live your life from an inner space of love and peace? Do you find yourself feeling drained and deflated after being out in the world or in the company of certain people?
“You Will Look Upon That Which You Feel Within”
Has anyone else been feeling unsettled and restless? Have you felt unhappy and out of sorts? Since I have returned to work after the holidays, I have experienced a continuous dis-ease within, a dissonant inner hum, if you like. I am out of harmony and off balance, and as I am within, so I see without. My daily experience has confirmed my inner disharmony. Nothing has felt satisfying, and I have been operating in a continual state of “feeling off.”
Fear Only Has the Power That We Give It
It seems that I have allowed fear and all of its manifestations — self-doubt, insecurity, self-blame, guilt, self-criticism and judgment — to have far too much power in my life. You see, I believed that fear was something beyond my control; that I was at the mercy of frightening events that could happen to me. I didn’t realize that I was the only one giving fear its power over me. In fact, fear has no power over us, unless we give it.