My Belief That I Am Special
As I have studied A Course in Miracles, I have questioned why I would want to separate from God in the first place. Why would I want to go my own way when my journey has become one of returning home to God?
Where Do We Find the Love That We Seek?
The words to the chorus of “Where Is Love?” from the musical Oliver kept playing in my head this week:
Where is love?
Does it fall from skies above?
Is it underneath the willow tree
That I’ve been dreaming of?
Oliver’s search for love speaks to our hearts because we all know that yearning to find the love that is meant for only us,. We seek that special love that will speak to our hearts and fill us with its beauty. We look for that love that will make us feel special.
Which God Do You Serve?
Do you remember learning about the Ten Commandments? I do. They were part of my Sunday school training, and later, part of my preparation for confirmation in the church my family attended. I really hadn’t given them much thought over the years… that is, until a deeper knowing opened within me recently about the one that states: You shall have no other gods before me. That commandment always seemed easy to me. Of course, I served no other gods! I believe in God, and that belief forms the core of my faith. It always has. I haven’t served any substitute for God… or have I? I had interpreted this commandment in a literal sense. I imagined that it referred to me worshiping some stone image of a pagan deity. That wasn’t me. Although I am no longer religious in the attend-one-church frame of reference, my faith in God is my […]
Contemplating the Power of My Expectations
I spent time reflecting on the following passage from Chapter 9, Section II, Paragraph 5 of the Text of A Course in Miracles this week:
The message your brother gives you is up to you. What does he say to you? What would you have him say? Your decision about him determines the message you receive.
The message my brother gives me is up to me? My decision about him determines the message I receive? I knew the truth in these words as soon as I read them, and I realized that knowing their truth placed responsibility on me for embodying this truth in my life.
The Love That We Are
As I finished my meditation this morning, this prayer arose from within me: Let me live as an expression of the love that I am. The beauty and truth of these words resonate within me and express the essence of who I am… and who you are. Let us all live as expressions of the love that we are. Imagine the world we would create. We know that we are powerful creators because we create and experience that which we think and believe. We create with the quality of the energy we emit. Our lives are a testament to our creative power. The problem for most of us is that we have been creating unconsciously. I, for one, lived a good part of my life with no awareness or understanding that I was creating and drawing to me the painful experiences that I was having. That may have been the story of my past, but […]
Going Deeper with Changing Our Thoughts
Last week, I wrote about having the power to control our thoughts. I shared my post with fellow students of A Course in Miracles, and thanks to their feedback and the clarity I received from further reflection and study this week, I want to correct and go deeper with what I wrote for you in the following paragraph: We do have the power to control our thoughts. Instead of letting our ego minds run away with our thoughts, we need to take control with our spiritual minds. How do we do this? We develop awareness of what is preoccupying our thoughts, one thought at a time. When a negative thought crosses our minds, we need to recognize it, stop it, and experience the stillness that is left when there is no thought… if only briefly, until the next thought comes, which will happen quickly at first. The spaces between thoughts will become longer […]
Finding Our Way to CHRISTmas
As we rush about in the mad scramble to get ready for Christmas, how many of us pause to think about what we are getting ready for? Is all the shopping, baking, wrapping, meal planning, party preparation, and more shopping what Christmas is all about? Does the true meaning of Christmas get lost in all the hustle and bustle? As we greet everyone we see with “Merry Christmas,” how many of us contemplate what we are really wishing for others? As we decorate our homes and yards with lights and sparkle, how many of us experience inner light and sparkle? How many of us truly feel the love and joy that this season is supposed to be all about? Instead, we feel pressure to prepare and to be ready to welcome the arrival of friends and family to celebrate this festive holiday. And what about those of us who are alone and who do not get to experience […]
Forgiveness Is More Than a One-Shot Deal
How many times do we need to forgive before there are no more layers of hurt and betrayal to peel back? I can’t give you a definitive answer. It seems trite to say as many times as you need to forgive, but it is true. I have been working on forgiving those with whom I have experienced the greatest hurts for years now, and I’m still not there. I still haven’t reached a place where there is nothing left to forgive… where I can say with complete truth that I hold nothing but love in my heart for them. If I told you that all I ever feel is love when I think of these people, I would be lying to you and to myself. I can tell you that there are times when I genuinely feel compassion, understanding, and love for them, but then when I least expect it… more […]
Giving Ourselves Away for Love
How many of us have given ourselves away hoping to find love? We give our true selves away in different ways. Sometimes we pretend to be interested in what we believe is important to another person to try to initiate an interaction that will lead to connection and, hopefully, love. Many times, we pretend to be someone we’re not to attract the attention and heart of another. We sublimate our authentic selves believing that an artificial version will be more attractive. We even give our bodies to another, hoping that love will be returned to us. I look back on the ways in which I gave myself away for love, not with judgment, but with compassion for that lost, insecure person. What I did was fueled by a deep desire to be loved. I believed that if someone loved me, I would be someone. I would be worthy. I believed that the experience I […]
Masquerade of Life (includes podcast)
Halloween isn’t the only day that many people wear masks and costumes. How many of us wear masks every day and pretend to be someone we aren’t in order to feel like we belong? How many of us are truly our authentic selves? I invite you to reflect on these questions: Have you added your own version of gossip about someone because everyone else was telling the latest and greatest news about other people and you wanted to feel included? Have you laughed at a joke that belittled a group of people or a gender because everyone else was laughing or because the joke-teller thought it was hilarious? Have you pretended that someone’s words didn’t hit hard and hurt deeply in order to play it cool? Have you pretended to be what you imagined someone else wanted so that they would like you and want to be your friend or partner? Have you subjected yourself […]